Dear God:  I love you very much and I thank You for all you have done for me in my life.  You have forgiven me a multitude of sins, healed me so many times, answered prayers and as the Apostle John said books cannot hold all You have done.  It seems I live in a moment, frozen in time!  Like a child I want what I want when I want it giving little thought to the consequences.  You, Lord, know what is best!  You made me the way I am and only you fully understand me.  So, You know my heart and how I fee and why I fee this way.

Father, since May of 2008, I have watched the g=church You gave me dwindle.  Not just in numbers but in spirit!  My heart is breaking Lord and I don't know what to do.  I pray but the heavens are like brass.  I know you hear me and even know my thoughts, yet there seems to be an emptiness inside.  Father, what do You want me to do?  I have exhausted my means to accomplish what I feel You have directed me to do.  I see the doors close before me, yet, I stand in the hallway waiting for the promise!  I have had great faith but today it is the size of the mustard seed!  You tel me that is enough!

As a leader, pastor, priest of my home, I feel I should have the answers.  Am I wrong?  Did I see something I wanted and wanted it so badly I felt it was Your will?

My earthly dad lives with you now and if he was here I would ask for his help.  Daddy always gave good advice and would move everything possible to help in a time of my personal need.

You Lord are the only Father I have that I can talk to.  I need your help!  Please do not forsake me!  Show me Your way!  As you well know there are many down here who claim to speak in Your name.  I can't trust some who whisper what I want to heart.  I need You to YELL what Your will is and what You will have me to do!

Father this is not just about the purchase of the land.  I want to build you a house where Your people can assemble and worship and perform the work of ministry.  It doesn't seem to be working in the school environment.  I know that unless You build the house that all our labor will be in vain.

Lord I have learned one leason for certain.  My church believes the building, not the body, is the church.  Now that's my opinion based on observation.  Those who remain with me should be excluded from that observation!  I'm tired, confused, impatient and anxious.  If I have been disrespectful, please forgive me.  That is not my intention.  I guess this letter is more for me than You!  I love You and want more than anything to please You and follow Your will.  You gave Moses a burning bush, Balaam a talking donke, Daniel and others an Angel.  You have given to me Your Holy Spirit and If I am incapable of hearing Your Holy Spirit will You please provide a way for me to hear clearly?  Today my mustard seed faith is all I have but maybe You are showing me that should be enough.  Thanks for Your time.  Your Servant, Bobby.